No Thinking

      I haven't written in awhile, but last night I wrote in my journal without thinking. I have never written without thinking, and it felt good. This is what came of it:

    My head is exploding with emotions and I can barely feel it. It's not numb, oh no. But I can't tell. My soul will find a way to everywhere including the earth and dirt. It will travel up the walls into the trees and down into the ocean. Is that a little cliche'? Oh no. Maybe it's just me, I can't tell. My love is endless and glowing from a window high above the sea. Like a windmill, it keeps spinning on and on. My mind will be open till the world ends, and you are mine. My spirit will always be high and bright, underneath the sand. Quit thinking and start feeling. You are just a vessel in this world, your sould is the true part. Let loose. Let's live. My eyes will be following the sould of many and my heart will be following the beat of the waves on my feet, keeping a steady rythym. Is that losing my mind? Oh no. Everything is key in this world, even you. You make up ths entire planet. Is that big enough? Oh no. This is leaving me unspoken, for the forces have taken over. My hand is feeling this. Like a feather I drift slowly to the ground, optimistic. Falling fast is no way to fall. Waterfalls are still pretty though. It has created a vast soul, on with sails that catch the wind. Into the unknown we go, off to a land of hopes and dreams, only to find buried treasure, we sail back.

Gunnar!

      Gunnar and I are dating, and he is just wonderful. I love how the relationship is going. He is the sweetest guy ever and I am so glad to have him! I felt like I needed a blog about us, so here it is. It's short because I'm not in a "creative mood" .... But soon I will have one big blog about him. And it will be awesome. So this is just a pre-quel.          Yeah :)

Pendulum Magic

   I have started becoming interested in the New Age ideas and one of them is the pendulum.. I have a purple amethyst crystal pendulum and I used it today to figure out my most recent past life.

Mine looks almost exactly like this.

This was a very interesting experience, and my mind was totally clear while doing this, so I have no influence over the answers whatsoever.

I was born in: 1884

Country: Nepal

Occupation: A spiritual healer, yogi

Religion: Buddhism

Married: yes

Kids: None

People in my life that I knew in my past life: Abiel (figures)

     All of this makes a lot of sense too, because naturally I have beliefs from Buddhism and life philosophies that tie into the Buddhist culture. I don't see how I could be a yogi because I'm not flexible AT ALL, but I can see myself being a spiritual healer, I tend to be drawn towards ideas like that, and I am a very open minded person to begin with and I feel like I already have a higher spiritual connection then most people would think.

      It's funny, because before I did all of this, I bought Tibetan Prayer Flags which look like....

   
       And I bought a strip of them. They usually place them either on houses, mountain ridges, anywhere basically, and they say that each blow in the wind is a prayer offering, and everytime a string flies off, it's a prayer that is being sent into the universe. I think that is so wonderful to think about. Anyways, I was looking on the packaging after I figured out my past life, and it was made in Nepal! I thought that was a sign saying this is right, I was born in Nepal my previous life.
      I just love these kinds of things, they bring me so much joy :)

A Big Blog of Thankfullness.

    Seeing that it is Thanksgiving tomorrow,  I thought it would be appropriate-more than appropriate- to list all of the things that I am thankful for. So, let the thankfullness begin!

1. My loving family
2. My beautiful dog
3. My amazing friends
4. Free education
5. Freedom to say whatever I want. To an extent.
6. My own room
7. Toothpaste
8. My green walls
9. My new world map
10. Money
11. My own car
12. My license
13. Facebook
14. The Internet
15. Optimism
16. Guys (you know you love them)
17. The awesome guys that I know
18. Fooooood
19. College
20. Loans and scholarships
21. My camera
22. The moments when guys are the sweetest thing ever.
23. Snow
24. Moments of bliss
25. Skiing

        I can think of tons more but it's a long list. So let's just say I'm thankful for everything thats positive and good in the world! Woo-hoo for optimism!

Snow Nights

     As I sit here, pondering my hopes and dreams, I look outside to the frost bitten land.. With a light cover of snow, my backyard looks magical. Ever since I was little I have always wanted to be a marine biologist. It is my passion, besides photography and traveling. I watch documentaries about the ocean on the discovery channel all the time. While most people think it would be boring, I find it exhilerating to know that there is basically a totally different planet on the same planet.
     Marine biology is, without a doubt, going to be my future. I'm going to be on a boat with a crew studying the migratory habits of sea turtles. I will travel all around the world, living life to the fullest, and living my dream.

      Off to the side when I'm not out at sea, I will own a beautiful, old white farm house that sits over looking the sea with tons of windows. I will have the most wonderful husband who would do anything for me out of love and compassion, and I would do the same for him. He will share my love of travel and wonder of the world.. and we both will travel together and the whole way through life, we will be madly in love.

      But before I get all this, I would travel the world with my soon to be husband, or who knows, maybe I would meet him along the way. Wherever life takes me.. It was meant to happen.

The Geography of Bliss

     I'm reading this book called, "The Geography of Bliss" by Eric Weiner and it's about how the author travels to the happiest places in the world and trys to figure out why they are so happy.

     I'm about halfway through it and so far he's been to Switzerland, Bhutan, Qatar, and Iceland. The chapter on Bhutan really intrigued me. Its a small, landlocked country in South Asia on the eastern end of the Himalayas. In 2006,  "Business Weekly" the magazine, claimed it to be the happiest country in Asia and ranked the 18th happiest country in the world based on a global survey.

    The population of 691,141 is made up of mostly Buddhists and Hindus. For centuries it used to be ran under monarchy but recently in 2008, it held its first democratic election. The author Eric, states that Bhutan reminds him of the made up place, Shangri La. If you plan on travelling to the remote country, they have a rule for foreigners; so the country doesn't become populated with tourists, they make you pay $200 a day to have a bhutanese tour guide. The guys are required to wear a gho, a knee-length robe tied at the waist by a cloth belt and the women are required to wear an ankle-length dress called the kira, which is clipped at one shoulder and tied at the waist. If the police catch you without it on, they will fine you.



     The country didn't legalize TV until 1999. They feed their pigs marijuana (which makes them have the munchies which makes them eat more, which makes them fatter) and they also believe that penises ward off evil spirits so it is common to see a phallic in a locals house. Fascinating, right?

     Bhutan is definetely on my list of places I want to travel to. It seems like such an interesting culture and I'd love to experience it. I need to fork out 200 bucks a day for my own personal tour guide though.. But it could prove to be helpful considering it's a very rural country.

This is a conundrum.

Oh boy, I feel like this is a high school relationship. But for one, he’s not in high school and two, we arent dating. Soo how does that work? I have no fucking idea. Goodnight!